Since losing my Dad I've spent sometime talking to a counsellor about bereavement. It's been a good way of talking through my thought processes and relieving some of the stress and tension. She made a comment to me very early on which a couple of months later I wanted to explore. "In Britain we don't…
Things only a baby can get away with.
Since becoming a mum I've noticed that there's certain things that you can only get away with whilst being a baby. A lot of these do relate to bodily functions: Congratulations. Only as a baby can you be congratulated and cheered for your burps or poos! Regularly I find myself saying, "well done" and "good…
Happy Birthday Pops!
Yesterday would've been Poppa M's birthday, last year we marked the occasion as it was the first one since he passed. Nothing too special, we just had his favourite curry for dinner and my mum came round to join us. We chatted about him and had a laugh, to be honest as the first of…
You learn who your friends are
The title may sound negative, however it's not meant that way at all. When you go through 2 of the most challenging and life changing events that I've focused this blog on, you learn who your friends are. Now, yes when my Dad died I had a fair few people who I did feel let…
It’s the best thing.
My little one is currently nestled under my chin, milk drunk and snoozing after waking from her slumber teary and upset with that classic newborn cry of hers. Everything had come at once, she'd given me a present in her nappy which woke her and she was hungry but also not ready to wake from…
What to read?
I wrote the other day about how I wanted my Dad to be remembered. I’ve thought about this more than I realised and it started when I decided to do a reading for him at his funeral. I didn’t want the funeral to go ahead without something personal done for him, we’d decided to have…
Angry that I feel angry
When I started this blog I outlined a couple of rules/guidelines to myself, one of which was not to use bad language (I didn't think it fair/appropriate to swear in a post). Today is an exception, I feel it necessary to curse! This is because losing a parent is shit, really fucking shit! It's so…
Learning to Cope 