I wrote the other day about how I wanted my Dad to be remembered. I’ve thought about this more than I realised and it started when I decided to do a reading for him at his funeral. I didn’t want the funeral to go ahead without something personal done for him, we’d decided to have…
Being a parent without a parent.
This evening I had a FaceTime call with my mum to see that she’d landed safely at my brothers (after a long delay during her flight transfer) and speak to my beautiful nephews (unfortunately one was out with my sister-in-law but the other gave me some lovely smiles whilst chasing bubbles round the garden). What…
Nothing prepares you!
I’m writing this in a sleep deprived haze with my 5 week old daughter sleeping on my chest, milk drunk and snoring at 5am (which is pretty much a lie in these days as the little legend slept until 4am, bonus!). As I mentioned in my last post, I see the blog evolving now to…
Caught off guard.
Grief is a strange process, you have good days and bad days, ups and downs and rotate around a mix of every emotion going. I've being living by the mantra, one day at a time, waking up each morning and facing whatever particular feeling it is I'm faced with that day. Sometimes though, it's not…
A sensitive poem.
I've found this blogger's poem about losing and missing someone, it reminded me that the feeling won't go away, I'll just learn to live with it. Cindy's reading What really struck me about this poem was that it is about the loss of a child. I'm not a parent myself yet, however I have a…
Another perspective…
I found this blogger's thoughts interesting, it suggests that happy grief enables you to remember someone and enjoy those memories and happy thoughts whilst missing them. Happy Grief What do you think about happy grief? Maybe in time I'll learn to feel more happy grief and this will help me cope. Because it's all about…
Back to Reality
At some point you have to get back into 'normal' routine, at some point you have to stop living in a grief bubble and you have to go back to work, back to routine, back to hobbies, you have to get back on with 'normal' life. Only it won't be normal (what is normal anyway-I…
Angry that I feel angry
When I started this blog I outlined a couple of rules/guidelines to myself, one of which was not to use bad language (I didn't think it fair/appropriate to swear in a post). Today is an exception, I feel it necessary to curse! This is because losing a parent is shit, really fucking shit! It's so…
How do I start?
What to write when you've just lost someone so close and important?
Learning to Cope 