The firsts aren’t the hardest…

Many people have told me that the firsts are always the hardest, your first Christmas without them, first birthday etc. However, I beg to differ, this was the case when I lost my Granny but it's been different with my Dad. I've prepared and braced myself for each one, firstly his birthday, then Christmas and…

Sometimes you’ve just got to laugh!

At first you wouldn't associate laughter with grief, you know you'll have your moments where you chuckle at fond memories and quirky personality traits (warning this post contains dad dancing references) but it actually comes sooner than you realise. When I got home after losing my Dad, everything was a blur and I was in…

We won’t see him again.

The hardest part of grieving is trying to accept the knowledge that you're never going to see them again, and after losing a parent this is worse. It's stronger, it's more emphasised, hurtful and frustrating. It's been 9 months and I still can't get my head around it. You never think your parents won't be…

You don’t miss what you had…

Recently missing my Dad has been different, on the visit to my brother's for Christmas we were blessed with an early present from Santa with the news that my husband and I were having a baby.  Needless to say the whole family were overjoyed, despite it being very early days, it was nice to share…

Looking forward to Christmas

It's always too soon when someone passes, there's always something you want to say or do and it's never the right time. However, we couldn't have wished for better timing, Dad was visiting after staying in the US with my brother and family, supporting them as their new arrival,my youngest nephew, was brought into the…

You’re doing really well.

I've heard this phrase so many times since I lost my Dad. To be honest I've begun to hate it, I sometimes think it's the worst thing to say but then sometimes I need to hear it. It frustrates me when it's been said by someone who I rarely see or doesn't know me that…